Much has been going on around here in my life lately. My business is steadily growing. My PC crashed, and now I’ve joined the world of Mac. We got tired of DirectTV and moved on to FIOS. Soccer and softball ended; basketball starts this week. My 2 year old little guy finds new and exciting ways to cause trouble every.single.day.
One thing is constant, and has been for 10 years now. My oldest. My first-born. She turned 10 just a couple weeks ago. It’s hard to believe. Let me tell you a little about her. She is smart. Silly smart. Way smarter than I’ll ever be. She is compassionate. She prays on her own every.single.night. She talks to God. She believes in the goodness of life. She is easily distracted because there is so much going on in that head of hers. She wants to be a Saint. She wants to be an architect. She wants to be a spy. She doesn’t want to leave home. I love her to my core. She introduced me to the love that a mother can feel achingly in her bones, and I’ll never forget that.
For her first couple of years of life, I had nightmares, horrible nightmares — dreams of all the ways in which I could not protect her, of how I can’t always be there for her. I would wake up in tears, body-raking sobs. Because I want to protect her from all the pains in the world, from all the hurt she may feel. As she gets older, I watch her grow and blossom. And I realize part of my job is letting go. I watch her, and I know she’s going to be just fine. She is a beautiful spirit.
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Her heart in mine.
I took these images as part of a tremendous online photography workshop, which I’m completing, on finding the light and pushing my creativity. The Workshop by Marta Locklear. If you’re a photographer and you want to push yourself and reach for more, sign up immediately. It is well worth it. Two spots remain for the January 2010 session.
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4 comments
What a gorgeous girl! Yes, Marta’s WS is incredible – glad you enjoyed it so
lovely images. she is going to be so happy to have these images to look back on.
i’ve been contemplating the workshop…am on the fence: new camera body or workshop and i’m awful at making decisions. i wish the answer would just come to me in a dream, writing on the wall, or by the FedEx guy
These photos are outstanding! Your “dreamer” is so pretty, and I can tell that she has a truly beautiful soul. You should be a very proud mama, indeed! Loved reading your blog about her too – so sweetly spun. “Letting go” is a big, messy part of our role as parents — I could completely relate and feel that truer words could not be spoken. We want to shelter, it’s in our blood, but it doesn’t feel so natural to let them go and grow on their own. Simply stated – it’s scary business! Trust yourself and know that you are doing all that a mom can do. She’s going to be fine, even better than fine, TERRIFIC! You’ll see. Thanks for sharing your oldest, your art, and yourself.
Wow, what beautiful words about your daughter! And what amazing photos
They really show off her personality. I love them 